Isolation – Returning to the nothingness to feel the somethingness of living. It’s been so silent around me. In my head. My physical surroundings. Life has cleared. So many things flattened and subtracted to leave me to me. All my own. My own. It’s just hitting me how few and far between moments like this have been granted me. I say granted because in the fervor of loneliness, the deafening silence of neither being admired or admonished seems like a little gift. I am currently entirely unsure. Unbalanced. Stripped. Feeling raw. Hypersensitive. Kind of lonely, but experiencing a new sort of peace. For the first time … for the first time in my life I am left by my lonesome to sort through all of it … feeling up for the challenge.

Bey wants me to what?

coffeetalkxo:

I remember loving Beyonce when I was just a child, rushing home to listen to Dangerously In Love and I was set, just like every other girl in middle school, on becoming a singer. I sang, danced, pranced, and lived for every track. I would even force my pops to listen to her song  entitled “daddy” where she paid a soulful homage to the number one man in her life, her father. So there’s no question about me being a fan. Beyonce’s music for lack of better words moves me. I love her energy, her commitment as an artist, her honesty as a woman, and her down-home roots — but something about this “Bow Down” track does not sit well with me. Don’t think I, or anyone else for that matter, has ever questioned Bey’s role in the entertainment industry, her prowess has been unmatched. There has never been a moment when we saw her as Jay’s “little wife”. To go from an album like 4 to this.. is just confusing, Bey. We love you, but we have questions honey. A lot of them.

Hoda, xo.