I am a part of a reality that is unfortunately willing and ready to blunt any form of authentic self expression. it’s too loud. too emotional. too sensitive. & I foolishly, thought the remedy for that was closed mouths, hushed demeanor and shy outward appearance and I realize that my heart and soul are way too complex and garbled for that. I am such an anomaly and a contradiction and sometimes a person who demands a lot emotionally but that is simply because I typically wear my heart on both of my sleeves. I am so happily sensitive and empathetic and easily affected but that also means I am alive and willing experience the ever evasive expanding events of life. the human beating hearts around me. I want to feel touch and have the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. I want to laugh till I can’t breathe and I want love flowing so that mine may as well. restrictive has never been befitting to me and at almost 24 I realize the person I am no longer requires herself to make room for that shit anymore. little hearts and minimized feelings are a thing of the past. openness and authenticity and sincerity, all summer 2016 + beyond.