Hi tumblr. Me no write to you in a while. So i thought it best to write while on break. Let me first thank God above for finals being over. I’m not a person who takes well to stress because, well, either i don’t stress at all or i stress far too much and i’m glad the awkward place i was in between those two extremes is over. Let me also thank God for my family and mostly my mom because.. Well, she’s the reason I do all that I do. My success is attributed to her and I do not think it is possible for me to appreciate her more than I do right now, but God, if there is.. let me. Because she is utterly amazing. Gosh, I’m just so happy to be out of school.. to be able to sleep in.. excuse me, let me reiterate.. sleep in. it’s so nice to know that plans for my days are either hanging out with my siblings, going to work, or to hang out with friends. Finals always make me go a little crazy but i’m glad to have my mind at ease.
With that being said, Thank You God, once again (never can thank God enough) but thanks for helping me realize all that I’ve realized within these two months. Thank you for granting me understanding on situations. Thank you for allowing me to grasp the concept that it is ok to not have feelings for someone but at the same time, I don’t need to hate them. Thank You God for helping me realize that I have a purpose on this earth and it does not entail being a housewife or working towards an average lifestyle that does not at the end of the day serve You. I’m really not trying to sound holy y'all but God is so good. He is amazing. Thank you for helping me realize that I am a precious person and that all that entails my being is not something that is to be lessened in order to fit someone else. Thank You God for granting me with the contentedness of lonely. Thank You God for filling that lonely with amazing friends and wonderful times with my family. Thank you, thank you for allowing me to see the days that I have seen and to learn something from each of them. Lastly, but NEVER the least, Thank You God for helping me see that everyone comes into my life regardless if they are just in passing, they are in my life to teach me lesson, more specifically men. Each one that comes into my life is granted with the opportunity to have a chance to experience my loyalty, my patience, my pleasantry, my daintiness, my kindness, my warmth, my kisses, my trust, my ability to make it my obligation when you are having a problem.. that i am meant to fix it, my ability to ride or die for you, and lastly.. my heart. But Thank You God. Thanks for letting me see that my efforts to be almost perfect for a man, does not mean that he is striving to be the best for me.. and through this, God, you have shown me to keep my attributes to myself– that only a few are deserving of this and for that i thank You. Thank you.