ohheyjreed:

Weeks will go by. No one wants me, I don’t want anyone. One day I wake up and all of a sudden I have a decision to make between someone new and someone old. I’m tired of this always happening to me, and I’m tired of always choosing the person from my past. It’s never once worked out for me, and I’ve spoiled many things that could have worked out so brilliantly had I let them. I don’t want to deal with this.

story of my life.