I thought i was infatuated with the idea of, but it hit me today that i’m not. I guess it’s a good thing because at least I know myself and how I function.. I wanted romance especially after my last stint. But I’m romancing him. That’s what it is. Prize I desire to obtain : h i m. I’m kind of proud of myself in a sense because there are others but they do not intrest, and I know it’s real because these outsiders want more of me than he possibly does but I love a challenge. Keep me guessing. Keep yourself on my mind. Make me work. Don’t let me get comfortable, make this a challenge … something worthwhile.